Today Mantra meditation experience was very precious. I will try. to describe...

Like always I got sucked into my thoughts...

First I thought about stupidity of King Vena who honestly believed that only he understood religion correctly and the point of it -  he is the God... I thought about the dark mind and how easily you fall into it especially ( Read more... )

Katie has a talent to make me desperate. She is so good at destroying my plans...

I guess she's a perfect tool in Krishna's hands to make me unattached to my plans, ideas, inspiration....

Today I read about king Vena and the political crisis. So during meditation I was also thinking about how horrible our government situation is now... I was ( Read more... )

Today's Mantra Meditation was not distinctive. I couldn't focus much but I wasn't distracted much as well...

I thought about Akrura. Because I was reading about intrigue and conspiracy around magical Syamantaka stone. I was trying to understand Krishna devotees being involved. Also I was amazed that it didn't change Krishna's position toward them.
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Yesterday I failed with ekadashi... In the evening family decided to go for Dominos Pizza. I've got tempted and gave up ekadashi. I was punished for that by sleepless night and yucky dreams. And the pizza was not even tasty... I'm not sure what promoted this night exactly - pizza or dark chocolate candies my mom sent. Anyways I would not touch the ( Read more... )

Today I couldn't get out of the bed in time.... Sometimes it happens and make me feel hopeless... I know that my day would not worth anything without mantra... I know if I skip one day of reading it's a great loss... But still somehow I can't get my ass out of the bed.... That proves again how weak we are...

Usually I get up at 6am, read until 7am ( Read more... )

Today I was reading about the importance of the right pronunciation of mantra when people of the past ages performed sacrifices (King Anga and his evil son Vena part).

It inspired me to listen to mantra more attentively during mantra meditation.

But it didn't last long... I was distracted by thinking about mouse. I found strange mouse in the ( Read more... )